The Courage to Begin A Devotional Essay by Harold Mawela Part One: The Morning I Hid From My Own Life Let me tell you about a Tuesday morning in Akasia—a Tuesday that nearly cost me everything. I sat on the edge of my bed, the sun already fierce over the Pretoria skyline, a cup of rooibos growing cold beside me. My phone buzzed with messages. My laptop glowed with unopened emails. My spirit whispered with unfinished prayers. But I could not move. I was a man frozen in the doorway of his own destiny, held captive not by chains but by the fear of beginning. Is it not true that we all feel this? That the weight of what we must do presses down until we cannot breathe, until the simplest task becomes a mountain, until we choose the paralysis of procrastination over the possibility of progress? That Tuesday, I did not write. I did not answer. I did not pray. I simply sat, and in my sitting, I allowed the assassin of peace to do its work. The email I avoided grew fangs. The phone call I ...
Title: THE WEAPON OF YOUR WARFARE: Why Your Panic is Proof You Have Forgotten Your Provider Scripture: "In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you." — 1 Thessalonians 5:18 (KJV) Brothers and sisters, let me ask you a question that might sting like antiseptic on a fresh wound: Why are you panicking? I was sitting on my stoep in Akasia last Tuesday morning. The sun was rising over the Magaliesberg, painting the sky in shades of orange and gold that would make a painter weep. I had my mug of Rooibos in hand. The birds were singing that beautiful, chaotic symphony they sing every morning. And I felt... a knot in my stomach. Loadshedding was scheduled for 10 a.m. The car needed a new tyre. My niece's school fees were due. The news was full of talk about the Budget Speech and the rising cost of everything. In that moment of beauty, I was preparing for a battle that hadn't even started. Then the Holy Spirit whispered to my spirit: ...