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**Healing Emotional Wounds** 


I live in Akasia, Tshwane, where the jacaranda trees bloom purple fury every October, carpeting streets in petals that stick to tires like divine confetti. Last week, while scraping a few off my car, I thought about how these trees thrive here—despite our clay-heavy soil, despite the heat, despite us. Their roots claw through concrete, breaking it to breathe. There’s a lesson there: sometimes, breaking is how we find life.  

Let me confess: I’ve been breaking a lot lately. South Africa feels like a pressure cooker these days. We’re juggling rolling blackouts, coalition governments that bicker like taxi rivals, and the haunting specter of gender-based violence that still stains our headlines. Just yesterday, I read about a protest in Hammanskraal—residents burning tires over water so contaminated it’s literally killing them. Thirsty people, poisoning themselves to be heard. Isn’t that a metaphor? We’re a nation choking on unhealed wounds.  

But here’s the thing: Jesus specializes in poisoned wells.  

Last year, I sat in my backyard with a notebook and a box of matches. I’d just read Ephesians 4:32—“Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.” Forgiveness. Easy to preach, hard to practice. So I wrote down every hurt I’d been nursing: a betrayal by a friend, childhood rejections, the sting of racial microaggressions (yes, even in “post-apartheid” SA). Then I burned each page, watching the lies—“You’re unworthy,” “You don’t belong”—turn to ash. It smelled like jacaranda smoke and liberation.  

But forgiveness isn’t a magic trick; it’s a muscle. Kierkegaard said faith is a “passionate inwardness,” and I’d add forgiveness is too. It’s not absolution for the perpetrator but oxygen for the soul. When we forgive, we stop letting the past colonize our present. Nelson Mandela knew this—he called forgiveness a “weapon of the strong.” Yet, in our national psyche, we’re still stuck between Truth and Reconciliation. We want justice without mercy, healing without the scalpel of honesty.  

Take our current political circus: the ANC and EFF, once comrades, now spar like siblings over inheritance. It’s easy to mock their theatrics, but isn’t their discord a mirror? We’re all fractured—personally, socially. We’ve confused retribution for righteousness. Yet Christ’s forgiveness on the cross was scandalously unilateral. He didn’t wait for Caesar to apologize.  

Healing, though, isn’t Instagrammable. It’s slow, like jacaranda roots cracking pavement. Last month, I visited a friend in Soshanguve running a trauma support group. One woman shared how she replaced the lie “I’m damaged” with “I’m God’s masterpiece” (Ephesians 2:10). Simple? Maybe. But when she said it, her shoulders lifted like wings. Theology isn’t abstract here—it’s survival.  

Which brings me to load shedding. Ah, Eskom—our national parable. We’re sitting in darkness, cursing the ANC’s mismanagement, but maybe there’s a spiritual analogy. Darkness isn’t emptiness; it’s a womb. In Genesis 1, God speaks light into chaos. What if our collective frustration is a birthing groan? We’re being forced to innovate—solar panels, community grids. What if God is using our literal darkness to teach us to lean into His light?  

Still, I’m not naïve. Pretoria’s leafy suburbs and Hammanskraal’s desperation exist 40 minutes apart. Faith without works is dead, James warns. So let’s marry our spirituality to sweat. Volunteer at a soup kitchen. Advocate for clean water. Challenge a xenophobic comment. And yes, vote—not as tribalism but stewardship.  

Here’s my challenge: What if we treated our national scars like jacaranda blooms—proof that brokenness can birth beauty? Your pain, your rage, your doubt—these aren’t obstacles to faith but the raw materials. God isn’t intimidated by your questions. Jacob wrestled an angel and walked away limping but blessed (Genesis 32:25).  

So light the match. Write the hurt. Burn it. Then plant something in the ashes.  

Maybe a jacaranda.

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